Thursday, July 29, 2004
mom read through my smses the other. saw the msges frm prabhu(sp). started questioning me. hmm. got kind pissed. she made it suond so wrong. ya. i know watever she says is for my own good. etc.etc. ya ya. but there realli is nth going on. and why on earth with him? and tt was lyk aften dunno how many million years later tt he msged me. ( a couple of months i mean) ya. haiz. watever la. though i kinda regret sms-ing. but there's nth much i can do rite?
am in a real bad mood nowadays. pms? i dun think so lehz. told jiawei off. been very mean to tt idiot desmond. and ya. bullying XINLE very often. hehe. tt cant be blamed. ya. anyway, at home aso thinks seem to be getting worse. haiz. feel so outcasted now. my bro and i. i dunno. my parents and me. i dun think they trust me. since the start. but aft the sms thing, i tink it became more obvious.
though my father tries to crap at times. there are much lesser now. i'm not playing around anymore. i'm no more the crapper nor the noisy one at home. i'm different. tts b'coz i have a feeling tt my presence is not really welcomed at home. i dunno. izzit the pressure i have on myself? the stress due to exams? or something else? i realli dunno. yesterday, my mother nv really spoke to me. i thought tt it was obvious tt she was trying to avoid me. my dad started to nag/scold. i dun feel good.
today i planned to off my hp for most of the time. and i hope i can continue with it. i probably onli on it lyk aft 10 pm. hmm. i dun lyk this feeling. waiting for it to go away. haiz. i dun think i can do it. i dun think i can make it. i mean MIGHT pass my o'levels. but even if i do they're so to be lousy grades. haiz. nvm.
todays pe was nice. hehe. 4o7 has really started to enjoy our pe days. man! mrs ee's nice! (cant believe i actually brought myself to say tt), =X
i betta go. need to go for mt class.
you will never be replaced ;
2:34 pm
